Things are a bit clearer now

The whole grand picture has gotten clearer. I've been playing the whole "what if I'm not, what if I'm bi, what if I am really straight" game in my head. I read something that helped clarify the issue for me. It was just a phrase, but that one phrase made things so much more understandable. The phrase was something like "sexual fantasies don't have to be acted out". For some reason that was the piece that made everything else just click.

I realized that any thoughts I've had about being with men was more of a fantacy. Deep down in my soul I know I could never be with a man long term. But I can envision and feel myself being with a woman for the rest of my life.